I sat curled up in our bed with tears just streaming down my face.
I had an awful cold. The bed around me was littered with used kleenex and cough drop wrappers.
I was home from language school, by myself in the apartment, trying to sleep but every time I laid down, I couldn’t breathe because my sinuses would immediately close up.
I was miserable.
But as I scrolled through my instagram feed… between blowing my nose and sipping hot tea… I saw something from Fierce Marriage that grabbed my attention.
Only Christ shows true, selfless, and devoted love. When a man pursues Christ’s heart first he can better pursue his wife’s heart. Btw, we have a new blog post about this type of love. It’s a short video story of a man pursuing his wife through extremely difficult circumstances. Link in profile! Pic by @jeffkmarsh / #love
I clicked over to their profile and followed the link.
Which lead me to this post.
Go on… click over and read it.
The post has this video called Blind Devotion.
I watched the video and that is what made me cry.
I posted it to my facebook profile saying, “saw this come across instagram today from Fierce Marriage… and I cried. I cried because it is sweet and I cried because it is true and because this is how God has called us to help and to love our spouse. and because in our marriage, in your marriage, there is weakness on both sides needing us to step up and just love.”
I want to love Jeremy like that.
And honestly, I don’t always.
I don’t always love him through a weakness.
Sometimes I distance myself or say mean things or accuse him wrongly or misjudge his motives.
Ugly… I know.
The harsh bring-on-the-tears reality is that my health could one day take me to the place that this woman finds herself in. The place where I need Jeremy like that. We don’t know where these MS symptoms will take us, take me.
But beyond the obvious health implications of this short video clip, I saw a bigger truth.
In all marriages, my marriage, your marriage… both the husband and the wife have weaknesses. blindness. a need for help.
And I want to love Jeremy through it. In it. Stick with him. Help him. Bless him. Whether he knows it or not. Support him.
Love him like that.
always. no matter what. no matter his response or his circumstance.
I want to love him like that. Through every struggle and challenge.
Our marriage, to truly be what God has called it to be, needs us both to step up and love like that.
To work harder.
To support more.
To help even when no one sees.
To protect and guide and minister through each weakness. Every day.
We’ve come a long way in our 14 years…
We still have so far to go.
New weaknesses and sicknesses and struggles will come that will force us to not just say our vows but to live them.
’til death do us part.
We must love like that.
I cried because I fail at it sometimes. often.
And I don’t want to fail.
I want to thrive. I want our marriage to grow and strengthen through everything we face.
Marriages today must take the challenge, step up and love like that.
Put aside pride and thoughts of self.
Replace it with genuine, biblical, godly love.
A love like that.