Embracing His Authorship

Embracing His Authorship

After 4 years of living in Africa, there are moments that I do not want to be here.

Can I say that?

Am I allowed to even think such a thing?

Not only are there moments that I don’t want to be here… there are moments, as this missionary so beautifully stated, that I think we aren’t wanted here either.

I could sit and list the reasons I don’t want to be here. I could also list the reasons it feels like Africa isn’t too fond of us being here.

All of these reasons are connected to moments of culture shock, overwhelm, awkward exchanges, humidity filled days and mosquito bitten nights.

You and I know that those moments are very real. They are gut, human realities of life overseas.

For as much as I feel I don’t want to be here sometimes and as much as it seems like Africa is out to get us some days, I will choose to remain on the journey.

I will stay and it just might be for long term.

I will choose to live it and embrace it.

This is not a story I chose for myself.

This is a story written by the Author of life himself.

I choose to embrace His authorship in every moment, every season, every challenge.

His story. Not mine.

Psalm 16:2 says, “I said to the Lord, “You are my Lord; apart from you I have no good thing.”

In Psalms, David wrote that choosing my story, my authorship would be far more devastating. It would be a life apart from my Lord and out of step with His plan.

Living that way, I will have NO good thing.

I want good things from God. I want all He has for my life. For our family. For my girls.

Embracing His Authorship

I want to model choosing His story over my own and watch as God weaves good things onto every single page. I want my testimony to proclaim the goodness of God from beginning to end.

I want to embrace the authorship of my heavenly Father and watch how the end unfolds in positively GREAT ways.

Whether I want to be here or not some days, whether overseas life continuously throws road blocks in our path while screaming “Go home,” we will continue.

We will sync our will to His and daily embrace the words He pours out in this story of our lives for as long as he has us here.

Because this is becoming my story, my song.

Praising Him all the day long.


  1. So well said! There are times I don’t want to be in Africa, and times I don’t think I’m wanted either. But after 3+ years here, I can see God working on me and them. And then I remember why I accepted His call to be in this place. Keep persevering. (And I think year 2 is the hardest!!!)

    1. Technically, we are IN year 2… we spend last year in France for language school and as unbelievable as it sounds, France was very much like French West Africa! So many similarities. But for our first year in Africa, yes. oh… so much more to come our way. I love knowing there are people walking the road ahead of us!

  2. You’re allowed to say that. 🙂 I’ve been there. And I’m sure there will continue to be good days and bad days. I was told that the first year is the hardest, and I definitely agree with that.

  3. “He who dwells in The Secret Place of The Most High shall abide under the Shadow of the Almighty. I will say of The L-RD He is my refuge and my fortress in Him I put my trust.”

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