Feeling Off-Kilter

Yesterday, I made a statement to Jeremy.

“I’ve never felt more off-kilter in my entire life.”

This new normal is constantly changing.

New things are always happening.

We are in new places nearly every few days, seeing old friends and meeting new friends.

We are having a total blast.

Honestly, we are really enjoying itinerating!

We have yet to dread any aspect of this… well, maybe all the phone calls and slightly awkward conversations… but even in that, we are loving this journey God has us on.

I realized last night, that although I’m loving this missionary way of life, I’m still processing the changes.

I’m still feeling the effects of the many changes in our lives.

I’m still going through the normal process of helping my family adjust to our new circumstances.

Homeless… but not really.

Packed up… but settled.

After making that statement to Jeremy, I let myself feel the words. I don’t think I’ve given myself permissions to feel that yet. To process the meaning. To work through the life changes.

I went to bed turning the phrase over in my head… trying to work through… and think. and feel.

Off-kilter… yet centered.

Off-kilter… yet grounded.

Off-kilter… yet right where we are supposed to be.

Off-kilter… yet surrounded by friends and family.

Such a weird feeling…

Yet… no matter what comes our way, how off-kilter we feel, we will make it through, right in the palm of His hand.

It is that truth that will keep us walking straight and steady while the world feels off-kilter.