I know that God answers prayers. I know He does.
I know that God is working and moving and accomplishing His plan around me and through me.
In my prayers leading up to a doctor’s appointment for my ears, I wanted to see healing. I wanted to experience the supernatural. I wanted my “messed up” (doctor’s words) ear canals to be anatomically correct. I wanted the doctor to be amazed at the power of prayer. I wanted those who have been praying to know that God still answers prayer. I wanted a verbal announcement of a healing to my ears. I wanted the surgeon to look in my ears and stand back in disbelief.
I so desperately wanted it to be over. All over. Today.
I woke up this morning still achy, tired and the same as always. While getting ready to go, I kept thinking, “But God… you still have time. Are they healed? Is this the day?”
“Increase my faith… Let YOU be seen today! I know God answers prayers!”
I got to the doctor’s office, waited and was called back to the room. I heard the doctor out in the hallway, “Oh, I remember her ears. Really difficult case.”
He came in the room and quickly checked my ears. “They are looking okay. The tubes aren’t plugged. Wow. Your ear canals are really something.”
He called for a hearing test, which I passed just fine. He basically said, “Give it time and I’ll see you in June.”
I don’t want to see you in June. My God is going to fix this because no one even knows what “it” really is and no doctor knows how to fix “it.”
My God does know “it” and He can fix “it”. My God answers prayers.
But why didn’t He fix “it” today?
I know my God is greater, stronger, higher than any other.
I know I’m going to the right place. I know my prayers are being heard. I know I serve a mighty God of compassion and love. I don’t question any of those things. But, in my human mind, today seemed like a pretty good day! Let the surgeon declare that he was amazed at the healing in my ears and let me be able to say, “My God healed me!”
That didn’t happen. Why? What other purpose could all of this have? What do I still need to learn? What lessons are still waiting for me to walk through?
And, you know? As I ask these questions, God is so faithful to answer.
God Answers Prayers
“God’s power in your life is determined by whether you pray in just special times or all the time. Prayerlessness limits God.” – Rick Warren
Have I been limiting God? Do I only pray when I’m desperate or do I pray without ceasing like the word asks me to do?
God answered through this post on Matt Hammit’s blog… a new song that he is writing. A song about grace.
The reason for our suffering
Is to help us realize
That in sickness and in death
We are helpless without Christ
And the reason for our blindness
Is for Jesus to open our eyes
Bless the Lord
This is grace, this is grace
When we walk through the dark night
This is grace, this is grace
So we wait for the sunrise
How I long for the sunrise
The one’s who are marked by suffering
Are the one’s who have found their joy
As conquerors in all these things
Struck down, but not destroyed
Bless the Lord
This is grace
I’m experiencing God’s grace in this season of waiting for the sunrise.
Although the sunrise seemed like it could happen today, I’ll keep trusting and waiting for God’s timing.
As Steven Furtick says, “Sometimes God interprets our prayers in strange ways. Sometimes you pray for something and God gives it to you, but the package doesn’t look like what you prayed for… This might tempt you to not pray for these things at all. But that would be your loss. Not your gain. I love 2 Peter 1:8. Peter tells us that if we possess qualities like those above, “they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.” The package might not look like you thought it would. But it’s going to help you become the person you should.”
God’s packaging is precise. He’s been at the business of answering prayers for a long time and He knows what He’s doing.
Keep praying and trust that what you get is exactly what you need and asked for. Even if you didn’t know it at the time.
It might not look like you think it should. It might not happen when you think it should. But God is working and doing something good while you wait.
The struggles of this life have purpose and are being used by a loving God to grow us into His likeness.
As I left the doctor’s office today, I was thinking of other things and went to pray for something entirely different than my ears and the terrible thought of, “Why should I pray? Does God really answer?” entered my mind.
Quickly, knowing that was a thought to take captive and not dwell on, I said to myself, “I’m going to pray anyway. My God does hear and He is in control whether I experienced healing today in the way that I thought I should or not.”
One of my favorite songs right now is “What if your best?” by FFH. It beautifully talks about this struggle of answered prayer and seeking God’s best answer, no matter what it might be.
We want His very best for us. In that best, we assume it is the best that WE can imagine. Forgetting that His best might be something unexpected, a different packaging, even unwanted at the time we experience it.
This song really spoke to me about truly wanting God’s best for my life, for my marriage, for my family.
What if Your Best by FFH
Isaiah 45:9 says “Woe to him who quarrels with his Maker, to him who is but a potsherd among the potsherds on the ground. Does the clay say to the potter, ‘What are you making?’ Does your work say, ‘He has no hands’?”
I am so thankful for the message in this song.
So thankful that I can trust the potter to do what is best. I can trust that my God answers prayers in His way, in His time.
God Answers Prayers
I think of Moses’ mother – she had to give up her son
I think of Hannah – she also gave up her son
I think of Lot – who watched his city burn and his family turned to salt
I think of Abraham – who was asked to leave everything
I think of Esther – who risked her life
Ruth, Naomi, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Daniel, the disciples, Paul…
Each of whom lived a life nothing like they imagined. Each lived through things that cost them something great.
All to make something GREAT
For HIS GLORY
Lord, use this piece of clay how you choose…
I truly want YOUR best.
I know you might not be going through a physical struggle like I am, but I know that the same message that encourages me will encourage you.
Be encouraged today! When it feels like God does not answer prayer, He is still at work.
Keep praying. Keep trusting. Keep holding on!