Living on the edge of eternity, knowing that I’m not home yet has become incredibly clear in the past few years.
“Can I heat up some coffee?” asked a friend recently visiting our apartment.
“Wait… I don’t have a microwave… uhm, here’s a pan.” I poured her coffee into a pan and we heated it up. Then, we poured it back in her mug.
I don’t have a microwave. No heating something up quick, no popcorn, no butter melt button. The list goes on.
Honestly, not having a microwave is NO BIG DEAL! We are super busy anyway, food packaging is small in most countries overseas so we rarely have leftovers and we can live without popcorn.
But I thought the other night about how I wished I brought our popcorn maker that a sweet friend sent us. Sadly, it had to stay at home.
And I need it now.
The truth is that I do not need my popcorn maker or a microwave.
I don’t “need” any of the other things I think we “need”.
Partly because living on the edge of eternity simply has its own joys. Partly because I don’t have to clean or store or keep up any extra appliances. Partly because anything we buy has to be moved to the next place, the next country, the next storage unit.
And I don’t want to have to deal with a bunch of stuff every single time we transition. I want to pack up our bins, buy a few things we will really, truly NEED for the next adventure and be on our way!
But to keep that attitude is a daily discipline. Especially when a moment arises that I DO need something that I don’t have. When I want to use something I am used to having in the states and I don’t have it here.
Be it a microwave or a big Christmas tree or my ornaments or fall decorations or pictures for the walls or a popcorn maker for movie night… I don’t need any of it for our family to be settled, be happy, or make memories.
Last night, I was thinking about how this isn’t home.
Our lives are meant for leaving home and being about His business.
And the only thing that ran through my mind was this song.
The words, “All I know is I’m not home yet, This is not where I belong, Take this world and give me Jesus, This is not where I belong”
It is a theme that God is speaking to me, reminding me that this, this life, this earth, this moment is NOT home.
We are living on the edge of eternity. Every day.
“Many treasures, loved and cherished – only let Him stay. Other joys no more may bless me; other friends may leave my side; Only let me hold His friendship; only let Him still abide. Let the chill mists fall about me; let the lights of earth grow dim; Leave me Jesus, only Jesus; I am satisfied with Him.” – Unknown
This quote molds perfectly to another part of the song above.
“When the earth shakes I wanna be found in You, When the lights fade I wanna be found in You.”
In the little lessons of not having a stocked kitchen full of great, awesome appliances.
In the big, heart breaking moments of missing family.
I want to be found in Him. I want to say when the mist falls and the lights fade, “Leave me Jesus. I am satisfied with Him.”
When my earth shakes, I want Him standing with me. Not a microwave or popcorn maker. I want Him.
Because this life isn’t home. We aren’t meant to be fully comfortable here. We are made for another time, another place.
We are living on the edge of eternity. Every single day.
And as the news worsens around us and this world continues to crumble, we don’t have the time to wish for things.
We only have the energy left to share the love of God, to be a light and to be about His business.
Knowing that He is all we need. He is all the world needs. He is the answer. The reason. The only hope and joy to be found comes through Him.
We aren’t home yet.
This isn’t home.
No place on earth is truly our home.
Let me be satisfied fully with Him. He is our invisible foundation and the rock we stand on until we stand with Him.
What a challenge for us all to live on the edge of eternity. I’m not home. You aren’t home. Our home is in heaven and with each passing day, heaven comes closer for me and for you.
Are you satisfied with Him? If you lost your microwave and your home and your job and your everything, can you say you are satisfied with Jesus?
Are we living on the edge of eternity?