“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14
This verse has meant so much to me over the past few years of walking a new road of sickness.
It is one of my favorite verses in scripture.
It tells a story of God’s power, his ability to move in situations and his planning of every moment.
The Israelites were backed up to the Red Sea.
The Egyptian army was approaching fast and furious.
What did Moses tell the fearful children of God?
You don’t have to do anything.
Just be still and trust.
He will fight the battle for you.
In His time. In His way.
For me, I have my next neurologist appointment on Tuesday. MRI and a visit with the doctor.
I have gone once a year in the past. This time she wanted to see me in 6 months.
When I’ve gone in the past, I haven’t been really worried about it because my symptoms hadn’t changed and things had remained steady.
This time the symptoms have changed. Things are different. I have to tell the doctor about all of it and see the results of the MRI.
MS is a real option here. That is scary.
MS is something that is crazy hard to diagnose and I might walk away with the same symptoms and no answers.
But, I might walk away with answers. Answers I don’t want. Not at all.
Answers that mean big, huge life changes for us. Answers that mean tests and medicines and… stuff I’m sure I can’t really understand yet.
How did this happen? How did I get so sick?
But, in being real, I have to say that God’s peace is REAL through it all. He is walking this with me and although from my view, this wasn’t in the plan… for God, well, He isn’t surprised at all. He has a plan.
A plan that I will gladly walk, knowing that I’m being held in the palm of His hand.
A plan that I can wait, be still and trust His precious promise to bring me through to the other side.